YOU WERE WARNED.
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
8:23 PM
(picture credits to = cheri)
your wonderful, your sweet, and your everything im looking for. i cant help what i feel, even if i dont want to feel it at times. i dont think im ready for something new, im scared. im afraid of being hurt again, im afraid of disappointing you and im afraid of disappointing myself. what do i do?
love is hell of a complicated thing. but we all need it.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
12:14 PM
hey my darlings :)
sorry for not posting in a LONG TIME. 20 days. o.O haha. ive got a whole lot to tell you! first is something personal.
i think, in life they'll be a lot of times when you don't know what to think anymore. things in your life have been changing so rapidly, that you can't keep up with anything. everything you thought, was changing. and its hard to know what exactly is what now. is it for the good? or for the worse? i ask myself. why do things have to change? maybe sometimes i overreact a bit too much. but i cant help myself. im not used to change. but my life keeps changing. and in my mind, its all for the worse.
knowing exactly who i am. knowing exactly where im going. knowing exactly where ive been. knowing what i want. knowing whats right and whats wrong. knowing whats important. i dont know any of those. but im trying to figure it out bit by bit. but one thing i know for sure, is that the people i love now, i will probably love forever. whenever im determined and whenever i set my mind to something, i positively sure i will get it done. and now is one of those times. but will those people love me back, i will never be certain.
im weird yea. ;p
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a little story
Monday, September 8, 2008
9:10 PM
mathh math sshmath i hate math. XD today will be a short post, cuz since i didnt post yesterday i thought id just write some stuff. we have a lot of hw, as usual, but i am still so bored!! drama reflections are really pointless. drama is pointless because its really boring. you practically do nothing! :( i hope we'll get to do something more interesting later on in the year ;p
anywayss, i just wanted to give you guys the song lyrics of the song "leave out all the rest" by linkin park. its one of my fav songs :) here goes:
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking meI want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking meI want you to know
[Chorus]
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
[Chorus]
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
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when all is lost, i promise myself i'd make it through. and i'll try with all my might to keep that promise..
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ily daph :)
Friday, September 5, 2008
9:23 PM
today was the worst day of the week. even if we had no classes cuz of the celebrations, it was THE MOST BORINGEST DAY IN THE WORLD. oh em gee the food was disgusting, the parade was boring, the only good thing about today was that we had no classes. :s but still, CIS being 25 years old, is pretty cool. so ill just say it again, happy 25th aniversary CIS!!
talking about birthdays, its one of my bestest friends birthday tmrw :) so sad that she went to boarding school in england, i cant see her anymore. ive known her for 4 years now, shes been a really good friend of mine since we were together for the most awesome-est school production, barnum. so i just wanted to wish her a happy birthday, even if shes in england, and i hope she has a very good one :) i wanted to get to know her better, but at least we have facebook and the internet. thank god for that. ily daph!
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"I've finally learned to say, whatever will be, will be. i've learned to take, the good and bad and breathe. 'cuz although we like to know what life's got planned, no one knows if shooting stars, will land."
-chorus from Whatever Will Be, by Vanessa Hudgens
i've never really been able to understand what she really meant by those lyrics, but it really touched me. i think that, what she was trying to tell everyone, is that:
you'll always be the one controlling your life. but sometimes, fate let somethings happen to you, which you may not like. and somethings, you can't change, no matter how much you'd like to. but when those things happen, you must learn to accept it. just take a deep breath and tell yourself, that everything happened was meant to happen. there's nothing you can do to change it, but in the end, everything will be fine.
and even, if you wanted things to change, you couldn't, cuz no one knows every single detail of whats in the future. everyone wants to know what happens in the future, so that they're prepared. but it would alter everything. and some things in life, you're just not to know, until it happens. so that you'll learn.
and i'm slowly learning to accept the good and bad things that happen in my life. i'm slowly learning that some things in life, you just don't have control over. but it doesnt matter, all that matters is that you live every day of your life. and enjoy it. because you never get it back. just like a shooting star, you don't know if it lands, and if it does land, it vanishes just like that.
my life, is complicated. but i'm trying to do my best. and love my life as i live every single day of it :)
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end of week 2
Thursday, September 4, 2008
7:25 PM
one more day till the end of week 2. whoaa time passes SO fast.
i can't believe we have our inter-house cross country NEXT THURSDAY. its only been 2 weeks of school and we already have inter-house cross country?! unbelievable.
argh i hate cross country. i'd much rather swim what we have to run, who wouldn't?! last year we had to run 900m, this year we have to run 2.6 km. see the difference? AIYA.
i feel like giving you guys some quotes. so here goes:
*The more I look around and listen, I realize that I'm not alone. We are all facing choices that define us. No choice, however messy, is without importance in the overall picture of our lives. We all at our own age have to claim something, even if it's only our own confusion. I am in the middle of growing up and into myself.
*In the country the darkness of night is friendly and familiar, but in a city, with its blaze of lights, it is unnatural, hostile and menacing. It is like a monstrous vulture that hovers, biding its time.
*True love is night jasmine, a diamond in darkness, the heartbeat no cardiologist has ever heard. It is the most common of miracles, fashioned of fleecy clouds, a handful of stars tossed into the night sky.
*When someone you love disappears, its like the light goes dim, and you’re in the shadows. You try to do what people tell you: put one foot in front of the other; keep looking up; give yourself over to the seconds and minutes and hours. But always there's a glimmer of light - that way of living you once knew - sort of faded and smoky like the crescent moon on a winter's night when the air is full of ice and clouds, but still there, hanging just over your head. You think it's not far. You think at any moment you can reach out and grab it.
*There was no easy switch that she could flip to slow the flow of feelings, no way to drain memories that pooled like acid in her stomach because her heart no longer knew what to do with them.
*A stolen glance, a stolen heart that you took and ripped apart. The worst part is you dont even know, and i gotta hold on cause i cant let go.
*Her confidence makes her shine but shes only pretending - - she only says shes fine.
*Don’t search, just see
Don’t speak, just listen
Don’t hesistate, just act
Don’t be scared, just love
*It’s no big deal, break her heart, let her down, make her cry. You ‘love’ her right? Everything is fine. Hold her hand. Lead her on. It’s no big deal. She’s just a girl. Like me.
*So that’s it.
I’m shutting my doors, and putting the walls back up.
I’m closing my curtains, and removing the welcome mat
I’m blocking everyone out again, cos its so much easier than feeling something.
*Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean.
*I'd watch the waves come in. Every wave alters the beach a little bit. Grain by tiny grain, the beach changes completely. After a while, a beach can become practically unrecognizable. Like life, I suppose.
quote of the day:
when life gives me lemons, i say, "good i like lemons, got anything else?"
:)
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LETS GO CIS :)
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
9:16 PM
HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY CIS!!!!
today was a boring day. there's practically nothing to tell you guys about, but i just felt like blogging :)
we made these flags with the primary students today, for the CIS celebration.
we have NO CLASSES on friday cuz on the celebrations!! yay. im so happy, cuz on friday we have 4 whole periods of chinese, which is really great, cuz i love chinese, but really not great, bcuz 4 periods is just too long :p
good news is that i got so many new songs on my ipod, and they're so awesome. i love them all! the power of music :) haha. my favorite song right now, is you and me by lifehouse. BEAUTIFUL. :)
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