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Saturday, November 29, 2008
6:36 PM
heya.
sorry for not posting in a long time. got caught up in everything from life to homework to boredness. life's just been, not so smooth, if you like, for me lately. how do you explain? its like, everything just keeps going downhill and nothing's stopping it from reaching underground. sometimes i just feel like im the only one here, stuck in my own transparent little world, no way out. and theres no one thats noticing, no one that bothers to help me out.
im always alone. alone in this sad miserable world. everyone else seems to be fine, why cant i?
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quizzical
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
5:20 PM
i just realized that joelle tagged me in this :P so anyways, here goes:
RULE #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2
Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.
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1. Do you have secrets?
yea, doesn't everyone nowadays?
2. For guy: Would you fall in love with a girl older than you?
For girl: Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
sure. does age really matter if your really in love?
3. Do you like going to school?
yes and no. depends on my mood.
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
donate to charity and umm spend it on things like clothes, movies, cds and BOOKS :D
5. Would you fall in love with your best friend?
if he was a boy, sure. ;)
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved, because you know that at least someone appreciates you for who you are, and you can love them back :)
7. List out your 15 favourite artists (Not in any order okay):
1) nickelback
2) taylor swift
3) vanessa hudgens
4) backstreet boys
5) lifehouse
6) kate voegele
7) jesse mccartney
8) daughtry
9) maroon 5
10) rihanna
11) plain white t's
12) simple plan
13) one republic
14) aly and aj
15) boys like girls
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
keep loving them with all my heart no matter what the circumstances are.
9. Is there something that makes you extremely happy?
being loved, being cared about, reading, quotes, my friends, the people who i love, snowboarding, swimming and those nights when i stare out at the sky and i can see those stars shining so brightly out there, and i just feel that im not alone in this world.
10. What makes you angry?
when people don't take things seriously, and when everything just seems to keep going wrong.
11. How would you see your self in sixty years time?
found my place in this world.
12. What are the current most important things to you?
my family, my heart, the world and my friends.
13. What is the most important thing in life?
friendship, family, acceptance and love.
14. Would you rather be single and rich but married and poor?
married but poor.
15. What is/are your favorite colors?
all the colors of the rainbow except for orange and green.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
no doubt about it.
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
erm. i don't get it.
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
ill try. and i know i will.
19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
the past is the past. we've all been down unstable roads, and we've just needed some time to accept. you make my heart melt, you make me smile. you bring warmth into my life. im trying my best, but it never seems enough. i will always feel the same, even if you probably hate me and never want anything to do with me ever again. what do i have to do to make you notice me again..
Tagged: Allissa, Sherise, Cheri, Joelle, Tiara
signed, yours truly♥
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trying to find my way out of the clouds
Monday, November 24, 2008
8:49 PM
back under the water.
im back from taipei!!! i loved it so much :) i had so much fun with bridgette and daniel. you guys are awesome :D I GOT SO MANY BEST TIMES!!! my favorite were the 100IM, 100BACK and the 50FREE :) and i also got to see Sandra, my taipei buddy from last year again :) it was a great weekend.
so anywayss. the only thing i regret not going to singapore is that i didn't get to see jessica :( so sad. miss you SO MUCH. but GOOD LUCK in singapore, you'll do awesome like you always do. ;)
ill be thinking of you, ma darlin'. think of me too! hahahahaha.
4 more weeks till christmass!!!! we have a math test on wednesday, and ting xie on thursday, ce yan next wednesday!!!! aaaaaaahh. :s but im not panicking. haha.
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moving on. everyone keeps telling people to do that when they're down. but its easier said than done. moving on is extremely hard. its painful. people just tell you to move on because they think its the easiest thing to do. they think, oh you deserve better, oh he isnt worth it, oh dont think about it, oh stop worrying just move on. but no one bothers to care about the people who actually have to do it. no one bothers to say, oh how are you doing, are you alright, how is it going. they just get on with their life. if you cared, you'd think of a way to show it. if you cared, you'd help me pick up the pieces of my heart and put them back together.
you try. try giving all your heart to someone, just to watch them crush it into pieces. try loving someone with everything you got, just to watch them push you away and leave you falling. try watching your sweetest dreams fade. try hearing those piercing words that you never thought you'd hear before. try thinking it was right, but it was actually wrong. try never knowing whats good and whats real in this lonely world. try putting faith in people, try believing in them, just to find out that everything was fake. try feeling your heart break, and wanting to cry, just to find there's no more tears left.
"it was just yesterday,
when she was the one guiding the wind.
yet those days seem so far away.
now, she's just a lost girl,
trying to find her way out of the clouds."
signed, yours truly♥
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tAIPEI!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
10:03 PM
hey guys. im leaving for taipei tomorrow!!!
AND I HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 6 IN THE MORNING. whos fault is that? bridgetteeeeeee x) jking, i love ya. :) i won't post for 3 days, but i'll tell you all about the taipei meet after i get back. i hope it'd be awesome so i can post lots. :D
anyways. this is my 3rd time going to taipei in 2 years. but i love it cuz its so awesome, they have great food :) all my friends are going to taipei, but except for jamie :(( WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO BOARDING??? your missing out all the fun jamieeeee :( oh well. have fun boarding anyways. i know you love it ;)
so today's a short post but i really have to go.
just a message to my friends -
i love you all and i hope you guys have a great weekend. i'll be thinking and missing you guys loads :)
<3 you. even if you don't love me ;)
"If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side"
signed, yours truly♥
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dear friend
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
9:38 PM
i miss you..
dear friend
I haven't heard from you in ages
I wonder how you're making out
Last time we talked I felt the space growing
Between us
I didn't think you'd go so far
Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking
And does this all make sense to you?
It's hard when you don't say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you don't say anything
Is this how you finish things?
Because to me, this doesn't feel like the end...
dear friend
It's not like me to put my trust in somebody
But to you I gave it all and if you'd asked me I would soften all your falls
But now it's me who's stumbling
Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking?
And does this all make sense to you?
It's hard when you don't say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you don't say anything
Is this how you finish things
Cause to me this doesn't feel like the end...
dear friend...
signed, yours truly♥
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
5:32 PM
far away.
omfg. CE YAN. freaking hard. but i cant believe my score!!!! i actually got a pretty good score. and im proud of myself :D but i know i can do better. especially in CHONG ZU!!!! i cant believe i was so stupid. should've read the ke ben more. it was so easy after i checked though. :s but kate and jackie are sooo good :D haha i TOLD YOU YOU WOULD DO GOOD KATE. and y'all still don't believe me :( anyways. i wonder when our next ce yan'll be. haha.
TAIPEI COUNT DOWN- 3 DAYS!!! i can't wait!!! and my dad is actually gonna see me swim. for the first time ever. o.O can't believe it, but i'm happy about it :D at least he tries sometimes. i just hope nothing's gonna come up suddenly to cancel his plans. :s half day today and no school on friday. leaving for taipei on friday!!! the only thing i'm disappointed is that i have to wake up really early on friday. :( morning flight. what a week :)
i can't wait till christmas!!! i get to see wilma, christian amanda justin and siena and sheila, AND GO SNOWBOARDING. i am obsessed with snowboarding. its just the most awesomeest thing ever. :) and just the fact that it'll be christmas, and i get to spend it at whistler. i'm one lucky girl. XD lol. but christmas is my favorite holiday of the year. so there.
im going to fast arent i. but christmas is soon. not that soon though. one step at a time ;) i still need to go through long hard days at school. i just hope december comes quick enough! .. and i'll keep holding on. i'll never give up because you mean the world. and if this is destiny, i will change it. who says you can't change fate. aren't you the one in control of your future? i say i am. i know you had to go away, i died just a little and i feel it now your the one i need. maybe its too late. maybe you don't want me anymore. but i'll keep trying, even if i've lost that last glimmer of hope..
signed, yours truly♥
"On my knees, I'll ask,
last chance for one last dance.
'Cuz with you, I'd withstand,
all of it to hold your hand.
I'd give it all, I'd give for us,
give anything but I won't give up.
'Cuz you know,
you know, you know,
That I love you,
i have loved you all along..."
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we love you chris brown :)
Saturday, November 15, 2008
10:28 PM
I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE CHRIS BROWN IN PERSON! w-o-w. im overwhelmed. it was a crazy night on friday. the best day of my life :)
THANK YOU M'DEAR CHERI. YOU ARE THE MOST AWESOME PERSON ON EARTH FOR INVITING ME TO THE CB CONCERT :D isn't she just the sweetest? ;) ily cheri. thanks so much.
it was amazing. first concert i've ever been to, and wow im still screaming (inside my head of course). lol. it was in the venetian hotel in macau which is so awesome. ITS HUGE. and sherise said the rooms there were like as big as allissa's house, and the suites there were TWICE AS BIG. o.O freaky.
and the concert was so loud. but i think we got pretty good seats. at least we could see his face. :D he is such a HOTTIE. bahhahahahhaha. but its true isnt it? ;p
and OMFG THOSE FRICKIN PEOPLE WHO WENT ON STAGE ARE SO DAMN LUCKYY!!! i wanna be up there. haha. oh well. it was hilarious. allissa kept calling sherise "santa claus". XD i had a great time. too bad i had to go home early. anyways. the power of randomness and hyperness remember guys ;) lol. i love you guys forever and always. xoxo
signed, yours truly♥
"Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye, we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me, were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak, I don't feel welcome anymore.
Baby what happened, please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door"
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revisING
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
10:05 PM
revise revise revise. FIRST CE YAN IN YEAR 7. freaking me out.
whoa. 12 x 100 fly and I.M today. why didn't you come today bridgetteee?! me lonely without you ;) hahaha.
anyways today is a really short post. nothing interesting happened today. XD
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thanks for the memories
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
8:30 PM
currently listening to: thanks for the memories by fall out boybleh. so much to do.
"Can I ask you a question please,
Promise you won't laugh at me,
Honestly I'm standing here,
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let the morning light come in and let the darkness fade away.."
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monday november the 10th
Monday, November 10, 2008
9:29 PM
omgg. swim training.
I SWAM 4000 METRES TODAY. dayumm. 8 x 100 FLY are you kidding mee? geez. i would rather have done the 8 x 50 fly kick again even though my stomach hurt really badly after that. everyone's gone to peak. :( there was practically no one there at swim training. but natalie was still there :) shes leaving tomorrow. biking :s i feel really sorry for you nat.
QUOTE OF THE DAY!!! (this is hilarious im still laughing. ;) hahaha.)
okay so i'm just telling you everything nat typed out for me on msn cuz i forgot some of the bits when she told me at swim training :D
natalie: so i'm walking out of the locker room and then
jennifer asks: arent you supposed to be at peak?
natalie: no, i'm going tomorrow. i take a few more steps and then
louise asks: arent you supposed to be at peak?
natalie: no i'm going tomorrow. then i go tell simon what just happened, he laughs, and im heading back, and then
james just goes (and because hes tall i kinda have to look up): do you go to our school?!
natalie: erm.. yeah??
LOL IT WAS SO FUNNY WHEN SHE TOLD ME. BAHAHAHA. so funny. XD
HAVE FUN AT PEAK NAT!! im gonna miss you. :D lol. aanyways.
countdown to fearless: 1 MORE DAY!!!!!
I LOVE YOU TAYLOR SWIFT :) you rock my world. love all of your songs. and you're DROP DEAD GORGEOUS. :)
ohmy. really into panic zone now.
---- ce yan on thursday, CT scratch project due wednesday, CT electives due friday, chris brown on friday, math test next math lesson, AND TAIPEI NEXT FRI>SATURDAY>SUNDAY. shit.
oh screw ct. its so boring. and scratch. mygod. A PROJECT ON SCRATCH. i cant wait till we change over to DT. cant stand ct. unlesss we're doin something interesting. :)
sry guys. not much to say.
signed, yours truly♥
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unwanted
Sunday, November 9, 2008
12:14 PM
is this what it feels like to be unwanted by the person you care about most? too sad to post much. sorry guys. its just that so many things have been happening so fast i cant control them or understand them. why are things in life never certain? why must i always have to guess? why must i always be the one with unhappiness? why must life be so complicated? why must we make life complicated? why must i be the unlucky one..
i never ever wanted to hurt you. i dont even know what i did. i just had my own problems i was worrying about, i had my own things that i was sad about. you just made it even worse now. the truth is, we've both gone through more things than we're willing to show on the outside. and i know that. because i've known you long enough to know that you're just a really good actor and you like to keep a lot of things inside. and i'm trying to understand you. i really am. i just need a chance. and its not like people always come to me. its really the opposite. sometimes when i need someone, they go to you instead. and its okay. i dont know what i've done to deserve this! if you never want to see me again, if you never want anything to do with me anymore... do i at least get to understand? do i at least get a chance to tell you things that i've never been able to say...
i dont know what to do anymore..
signed, yours truly♥
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BREAKING MY RECORD
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
9:29 PM
OMFG. I CANT BELIEVE IT. today in swim training we did the hardest set ever. well not really, i'm just exaggerating. but it was really hard and we had to do it with the tag nationals cuz dean wasnt here :s so ANYWAYS, our main set was 12 x 100 and our target was to do our best time for each 100. it was split into 3 x 100 then recovery, the another 3 x 100 and so on.
and the coolest part was that in one of the 100's, i swam a 1:12 for 100 free. and that is the SO AWESOME dont you think?
haha i'm just really surprised that i actually got 1:12, 2 seconds of my best time!! but natalie, YOUR STILL FASTER. and bridgette, I TOLD YOU YOU WERE BETTER. :) and you guys don't believe me 8-)
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anyways tday at school was just another normal day. seconds dragging into minutes and minutes dragging into hours. just staring at the clock waiting for the moment when class would be over. it's kinda like being in a trance, when you have so many other things on your mind, and your worrying about so many things, you don't even know what's going on around you. but oh well. school's school. hope tomorrow's better.
sorry bout the short post. no time.
signed, yours truly ♥
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untitled
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
9:59 PM
do you every get the feeling when your holding something back, but you really want to say it all the same? do you ever get the feeling when you feel like your the only one left on this lonely world? do you ever get the feeling when you feel as though all the people who were once dear to you are slowly slipping out of your reach? do you ever get the feeling when you feel like your the only one giving and never taking? do you ever get the feeling when your heart hurts because you've been holding too many things back and there's no tears left to cry? do you ever get the feeling when you feel as though you have no idea what exactly is happening to you and your life? do you ever get that frustrating feeling when you don't know who's feelings are true to you, and who's are just slowly fading? do you ever wonder about who exactly you are? do you ever get the feeling when you feel like there's no one on this earth who cares about you? do you ever get the feeling when you are forced to change who you are because the people who you feel most comfortable with no longer accept you?
because i do.
signed, yours truly♥
"Don't you hate the feeling when your throat hurts from all the tears you're holding back, and you can't control the words coming out of your mouth cause there is just too many things you haven't said."
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the night of nights- HALLOWEEN ;)
Monday, November 3, 2008
7:31 PM
currently listening to: with me by sum 41
(you people should really listen to it, its soo good. :) i love it)
halloween was so fun. even though i didnt get a lot of candy but who cares. at least i got to spend a really hilarious and fun night with two of my really good friends- natalie and jamie. and natasha also came along :)
it was so funny when we were taking mirror pictures in the club house, and everytime me and nat took it, it always came out really blurry. so jamie wanted to try. the first few times she took the picture, she faced the camera the wrong way!! XD LMAO.
then after that she tried again, and this time SHE ONLY GOT HALF OF NATASHA in the picture!! when me and nat saw the pic we started laughing so hard, it really was very funny. this is the picture:
me and nat call it: jamie's failed attempt. HAHAHAHA. :D
at least its better than the time she faced the camera the wrong way!! ;p
anyways. after trick or treating we all went to jamie's house. and sometime during that time, jamie started singing, because me and nat started singing the song 'love story' first while we were listening to our ipods. but jamie sang this classical song which i dont even know the name of, and it was really funny the way she sang it, so nat recorded it. :)
and jamie was SUPER HYPER, you wouldn't even believe it. everytime someone'd open the door in her room, she'd go CLOSE THE DOOR CLOSE THE DOOR!!! and when she started laughing she wouldn't stop. and me and nat never knew what she was laughing about. unless we were laughing with her. haha. and then she'd demand people to close the door and turn off the lights for some weird reason. ;p but i still love you cutie. ;)
here are some pics of our awesome night-
i love you jamie :) cutiee.
ilyg. thanks for an amazing night :)
imitation of sophie p's sister's angry face XD
signed, yours truly. :)
"I've got a lot of things, I have to do, all these discrations, our future's coming soon, we're being pulled... in hundred different directions. But whatever happens.... I know I've got you. You're on my mind, your in my heart. It doesn't matter where we are, we'll be alright, even if we're miles apart.." :)
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Angie here. I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety precautions.
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