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is this what it feels like to be unwanted by the person you care about most?

too sad to post much. sorry guys. its just that so many things have been happening so fast i cant control them or understand them. why are things in life never certain? why must i always have to guess? why must i always be the one with unhappiness? why must life be so complicated? why must we make life complicated? why must i be the unlucky one..

i never ever wanted to hurt you. i dont even know what i did. i just had my own problems i was worrying about, i had my own things that i was sad about. you just made it even worse now. the truth is, we've both gone through more things than we're willing to show on the outside. and i know that. because i've known you long enough to know that you're just a really good actor and you like to keep a lot of things inside. and i'm trying to understand you. i really am. i just need a chance. and its not like people always come to me. its really the opposite. sometimes when i need someone, they go to you instead. and its okay. i dont know what i've done to deserve this! if you never want to see me again, if you never want anything to do with me anymore... do i at least get to understand? do i at least get a chance to tell you things that i've never been able to say...

i dont know what to do anymore..
signed, yours truly♥

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