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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
11:11 AM

the 31st :] finally.
hello 2009!
happy birthday kim!! have a great time in singapore, hope your havin fun :)) oh and also, i hope you love the book i gave you :D so awesome right?
im so happy. the best part about going on holiday was that i got to see wilma :) and it was even better because she gave us so much awesome things! shes the best. she gave us a $30 canadian dollar gift coupon to buy books EACH, and i got 3 new books :D including the one my dad bought for me the night before!! and she also got us some clothes and a cd :) i hope she comes to visit us when she goes to the phillipines for her daughters graduation! really miss her.
seeing amanda, christian, justin and sienna was also really really fun. we never really get the chance to hang out in hk, we're always so busy. in whistler, we got to hang out together at their super cool four seasons hotel room, watch tv, go to the arcade and just have fun. i even did their kumon for them XD ilygsm :)
yesterday me and my sis met up with my dads old friend uncle sean and his wife and his daughter, maya. too bad zara was sick, otherwise it'll be even better. but oh well. i missed them so much! haven't seen them in like 3, 4 years! the last time we visited them was when we went to montreal in the summer 3 or 4 years ago. XD we took random pictures, shopped, laughed, and went crazy :) omgg i cant believe that maya's only 13, but shes like 2 HEADS TALLER THAN ME!!! freakishly tall. im serious. shes like the same height as her dad and mom, and believe me, they are VERY VERY tall. it was really funny because in the middle of our conversation, katherine started laughing really hard for no reason. and me, maya were staring at her like she was mad, cuz we didnt even know what the hell she was laughing about. X)
turns out she was laughing about something maya's mom said before. so because they live in india, and in india they dont sell beef and when they came to hk they really wanted to eat a burger. but the hk people (their cousins) they were living with were like: what is your problem?! and she found that funny 8)
anyways. this post probably doesnt really make sense. but oh well.
signed, yours truly♥
"I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time.
Music starts playin’
like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.
Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around."
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random quiz &IM BACK!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
4:20 PM
I'M BAAAACK!!!
home sweet home. oh yes. thats for sure.
im feeling way better than before the holidays, but i just know theres more to come. at least the travel jetlag sickness thing has worn off. ugh, the dizziness. :s
heres just a random quiz i found. found it kinda funny. so here goes:
BIGGEST GIRL SURVEY EVER, don't be shy, fill it all out
1. Do you sleep in your bra? ah-hemm. no.
2. what color is your room? cant tell. either a very VERY light shade of pink, beige, or just plain white.
3. Are you happy with your looks? i guess.
4. Do you enjoy drama? nope. definitely not the school drama.
5. Are you a girly girl? i have no idea.
6. Who was the last person you hugged? wilma. :)
7. Small or large purses? small.
8. Are you short? average.
9. Do you like someone? yes and a no.
10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty? let me think. NO!
12. Do you think you’re conceited? uh..i dont know. dont think so.
13. Do you dress up on Halloween? haha yes.
14. Are you double jointed? i think so.
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? on a mattress underneath a bed.
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? what is wrong with these questions?!
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? uhh...
18. Do you call anybody by their last name? nope. unless AY counts.
20. How many guys will read this just because of the subject? i have no idea.
[x] I do wear make up.
[x] I have cried in a movie theater.
[ ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I sometimes get jealous.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ]I like death/grind/black metal. music
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno.
[x ] I like country.
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[x] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing
[ ] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[x] My friends are the best.
[ ] I have a piercing other then my ears.
Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that your wearing? in what strange wacky world would i be living in to tell you THAT?!
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys? dont really car.
3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy? no.
5. Do you have a best friend? not sure.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken? who hasn't.
7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery? thats for celebs 8)
8. Do you like your life? no. but im still keeping an open mind. in case it gets better.
10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you ? no.
11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? yes. stupid survival skills.
12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? i think the same.
14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face? LMAO. no.
15. What are your biggest fears? i would be crazy to tell you. but ill give you a hint. im living them.
16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? yes.
17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? yes.
18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater"? hmm.
19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something? yep.
20. Do you ever wish you were famous? maybe.
21. Are you currently missing someone? YES.
THIS GUY OR THAT GUY?
cowboy or gangster? dotdotdot.
preppy or punk/goth? no comment.
face or body? dont know.
sweet or sexy? of course sweet.
city-slicker or rural guy? erm.
contact or glasses? contacts.
QUESTIONS
Eyeliner or Mascara? i dont wear makeup.
Pumps or flats? what the hell are pumps?
Skirts or pants? pants.
Socks or leggings? thats a hard one.
Hoodies or jackets? hoodies.
Heels or sneakers? sneakers!
Straight or curly hair? wavyy :)
Hoop or dangling earrings? both.
White or black? ditto.
Diet or regular sodas? regular.
Pearls or diamonds? diamonds
Ipod or cell phone? oh wow. that IS hard.
Friends or family? it used to be friends. but now im not so sure.
Lip gloss or lip stick? gloss.
Manicure or pedicures? manicures.
Tank tops or lacy? soo tank tops.
love or peace? love is peace.
Sunglasses or purses? sunglasses
IN A GUY...
Funny or Serious? both.
Cute or Hot? it really depends.
Dark Eyes or Light Eyes? dark.
Long Hair or Short Hair? umm. i'd rather short, but not too short.
Curly Hair or Straight Hair? straight.
Clean-cut or Rough? what is that?
Good Dancer or Good Singer? doesnt really matter.
Basketball or Football Player? ditto.
Jock or Rebel? jock.
Smoker or Non-smoker? NON-SMOKERS. definitely.
Drunk or Sober? sober.
Druggie or Clean? clean.
Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car? sports car.
Has a mustache/beard or clean shaven? CLEAN SHAVEN. hehe.
random quiz.
copied from Nicki {http://xoxonotsoperfect.blogspot.com}
signed, yours truly♥
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the worst christmas ever
Saturday, December 27, 2008
1:25 PM
so its official.
merry xmas everyone back in hong kong. wish you guys all the best.
i know im just talking to thin air, but still, im wishing in my heart..
yesterday was christmas day here in whistler, and today's boxing day. not much shopping going on here, but hey, at least we got the snow!
everyone's lovin christmas. except. for me.
i just found out the most dreadful news. what a way to bring my mood down. i hate it when that happens. wtf is your problem. DO YOU KNOW ITS CHRISTMAS?! HAS SOMETHING GOTTEN INTO YOUR MIND?! out of all the days in the year, YOU CHOSE CHRISTMAS. christmas. just great. christmas is supposed to be a time when families get together, a time of happiness, a time of starting from scratch, a time of a new beginning. a time when miracles should happen.
but oh no. not for me.
your a real mood crasher did you know? i thought i'd have the best christmas, being away from all distractions, everything that had made me feel completely invisible for the past weeks. i came here with a heart full of joy, that i was escaping the world of lonliness. and you chose this moment to tell me. WHAT THE FREAK. i havent gotten over the last time okay. its only been two years. what, and you land a NEW BOMB ON ME? so its okay, that i can be at rock bottom and then sink even deeper into the ground? so its okay, that you can be happy, and not allow me some time to smile? so its okay, to tell me the worst news ever on CHRISTMAS EVE?! so its okay that i dont need to have any feelings, i should just accept anything that you say to me?! do you even care?!
what am i supposed to do now?
be happy for you? when i already have the worst life ever?
what on earth do i do?! i dont have anyone i can trust, i dont have anyone i can talk to. except my mom. and she probably doesnt even know yet.
YOU JUST RUINED MY LIFE DID YOU KNOW THAT. DID YOU KNOW THAT?! what is your FREAKING problem. if you'd known im sensitive to these kind of stuff, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE CHOSE CHRISTMAS. oh wait. YOU DONT KNOW THAT. cuz you DONT KNOW ME.
what do you want me to do now? accept it?
you dont even know all this. you dont even care do you. i knew this was gonna happen sooner or later. cuz all the bad things happen to me. right? i know its her your ALWAYS talking to on the phone. go ahead then. you already hurt me enough.
signed, yours truly 3
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schools out!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
1:13 PM
this picture is taken in WHISTLER!! and thats, where im going for christmas. its so awesome and i absolutely love it. you know that. ;)SCHOOL'S OUT!!!and im freeee. yesterday was so fun. i went to watch cape no. 7 with my mom, and it didnt disappoint :) it was such a good movie!!! sad, beautiful and touching at the same time. beautifully sad, as i like to call it :) it tells a story of how ordinary people can achieve something big, and dreams matter, even if you've failed, even if its just something really really small. i've learned a lot of things from the movie: behind every character in this movie is a love story. behind every story is a meaning. behind every meaning there's a hidden talent, waiting to be discovered.
just like a spark, waiting to be lit.
just like every little chance, waiting to be grabbed.
sometimes, you don't need to search hard to find something that is there all along. sometimes you go the long way to find something that you never knew you had. sometimes, life's like that. but its worth it. sometimes, the result doesn't matter. its the process in which you go through to find that thing, that makes all the difference.
never leave anything unfinished.
&dont be afraid to love.
***
theres more, but i just cant think of anything right now. you should really watch the movie, its sooo good. haha i told you im a sucker for sad love stories. anyways. im leaving tmrw!!!!! cant wait. the flight to vancouver is like 12 hours, and theres another 3/4 hours drive to whistler, but its sooo worth it!! i have one last thing to say.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADE AND CAILEIGH.
have a great 11th(jade) and a great 12th(caileigh)!! you guys deserve the best. your two awesome people, and im so glad im one of your best friends :) i love you guys so much, you've always been there when i need you. your one AWESOME skater jade. wish you all the best in your future skating comps, and of course, your love life with you know who :D
caileigh, your such a fast runner and a pro horserider :) what should i wish for you caileigh? haha you pick :) i love you guys, have a great birthday.
"當陽光再次離開那
太晴朗的國境之南
妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛
在告別前用微笑全歸還
海很藍
星光燦爛
我仍空著我的臂彎天很寬
在我獨自唱歌的夜晚請原諒我的愛
訴說的太緩慢"
signed, yours truly♥
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christmasss<3
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
8:58 PM

HALF A DAY LEFT AND IM FREE :)
merry christmas everyone!!! im so happy i get to go to whistler :D SNOWBOARDING BABYY. snowboarding rocks. whistler is so awesome too. i love it, and this is like my 6 or 7th year in a ROW going there for christmas!!! you can totally feel the christmas spirit there. cant wait to see christian, amanda, justin and siena and your SUPER AWESOME FOUR SEASONS HOTEL ROOM :) cant wait to see WILMA!!!!! thx for the books and the presents. i miss you so much!! i hope i finally get to snowboard through trees properly, WITHOUT FALLING DOWN SO MUCH. ;p it really is hard.
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIAN! haha, i know i've said it 3 times already, but still. cant believe your OLDER THAN ME. che. everyone's older than mee. :( oh and YOU LIKE ELIZAAA. hahahahaha jokes jokes jokes. remember mr. b? ;) just kidding. thx for the gift card! thx for being such an awesomely perverted friend. HAHA. jokes again. thx for being an awesome friend :D
im gonna go watch cape 7 tmrw with my mom! :) lookin forward to that. i heard its really good, and i saw the soundtrack of it in taipei. looks cool. hope it wont disappoint me! history was the best today. so funny, as usual. the funniest was when at the beginning of class i was unpacking my stuff, and i think i was like saying something to jeremy and wilson. then suddenly when i was done, jeremy was like HA HA HA HA HA. literally. right in front of my face. 8-) obviously, the funniest thing was actually watching wilson laugh. but jeremy was hilarious too.
oh and in english!!!! mr dillon was going on and on and on about some random writing process thing, and i was only half listening. i dont know what i was doing. i think i was fiddling with my diary or something, then suddenly mr dillon was like "angela?" and i just stared at him and went "huh?" ---> XD i didnt mean to say huh. i really didnt know what in the WORLD he was talking about! ;) but i wasnt really paying attention. so there. haha.
ohh and we watched a movie in english and it was SO FUNNY because it was really freaky, and JEREMY SCREAMED when there was like really freaky music, and it was at some really freaky part of the movie. jeremy screams like a girl. haha. but when he screamed, everyone else started screaming. and then people started laughing cuz it was funny. ;p
the movie was kinda scary i admit. JUMANGI. :D lol.
i wanna leave, but school isnt half bad :)
"Oh, it's time to let it go
The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, it's set on false pretense"
signed, yours truly♥
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the scar on her heart
Monday, December 15, 2008
4:39 PM

omggg it was sooo funny today in history!!!!
so the story goes like this:
wilson, jeremy lin and i were working on our history task sheet for ancient china, the one you need to mark the places on the task sheet on the empty map. so we were looking for the "mountain range on the border of mongolia and china", and then jeremy saw something and tried to pronounce it.
jeremy: nei..... mong..gol..zi...zhi..cuda....hing...ganling... :s
me: what the hell are you talking about?
jeremy: no looook!!! *points to textbook*
me: whatt??
jeremy: nei monggol zizhiquda hinggan ling!!! *keeps repeating it*
wilson: *starts laughing*
me: *looks at wilson and starts laughing too* HAHA.
ms. lau: *sees me jeremy and wilson laughing, and comes over to our table* what are you guys laughing about?
jeremy: *points to the textbook* nei monggol zizhiquda HINGGAN LING!!!
me, jeremy, wilson, ms.lau: *laughs*
ms.lau: HAHAHAHAHA. what if this guy lives there, and someone asks him where he lives. and he'd go: i live in.....NEI MONGGOL ZIZHIQUDA HINGGAN LING!!!!!!!
we all crack up laughing even ms.lau. wilson was about to fall off his chair. lol but seriously, it was sooo funny. and then sean and other people come over and ms. lau tells them the story. they all start laughing too. the funniest part was when therena comes over to see whats going on, and then when she hears what ms.lau says she like falls down on her knees, laughing. it WAS really funny :D
***
As he goes left and you stay right, between the lines of fear and blame, you begin to wonder why you came. Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness. And I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life. Let him know that you know best, cause after all you do know best. Try to slip past his defense, without granting innocence. Lay down a list of what is wrong, the things you've told him all along, and pray to God he hears you..
I wish I could tell you the things I never got the chance to. I wish I was with you now to see you smile again. I wish we had more time but time goes by so fast, the moment comes and then the moment passes by in the blink of an eye. And If I had one wish...I wouldn't ask for money, I wouldn't ask for fame, I wouldn't ask for the power to make this world change...If i could have one thing, that one thing that I would chose, is one more ordinary day with you...With you.
有一把伞撑了很久, 雨停了也不肯收.
有一束花闻了很久, 枯萎了也不肯丢
有一种朋友希望能做到永远, 即使青丝变成白发, 也能在心底深深保留.
The scar on her heart
Trapped,
In her own sea of broken dreams.
Lost,
In the rush of her complicated feelings.
Given up,
On the hope of finding a miracle.
Holding on,
To the faith of happiness.
Drowned,
In a flow of tears and sad thoughts.
She wanted to wish,
But hardly dared to hope.
She was broken on this inside,
Why couldn’t anyone just look, beneath the surface?
© Angela Yang
she wanted to wish, but hardly dared to hope. she was broken on the inside. when the world turns its back on me, when everyones walked out of my life, when you've hurt me in every possible way, when it seems like the end, when it seems like theres no point in life anymore, i still have my strongest defense. myself. you cant ever kill every single part of me, if i havent already killed myself. however much it hurts, however much i can feel my heart breaking, i stand strong with that smile on my face. ive done this before, i know i can do it again. ive heard those words so many times, i know time heals. however long it takes, im going to make it through. however long it takes, i will live again. even if i seem to have given up, you'll still never win. because deep inside my heart, i know the strength is within. however long it takes, tomorrow will forever be another day. another day to dream, another day to hope, another day to make things right.
signed, yours truly♥
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breaking down
Monday, December 8, 2008
8:05 PM

why does everything have to change? i thought you were someone i could trust, but in the end, it all comes to nothing does it. im always the one left behind, im always the one without a friend. i cant even tell anyone anything anymore. im tired of keeping everything inside, but i dont know what to do anymore. ive got no one to trust, no one who cares, no one to understand, no one who knows me. when people move on, you all completely forget about the past. do you ever wonder if theres something more to just forgetting? to just abandoning everything that used to be? does it mean its not worth appreciating, if its the past? even if its the smallest thing, a smile, a question. it doesnt mean its not important. "we spend our whole lives trying to chase after things we dont have. i'd only be happy if..... you're never satisfied with what you already have. but the truth is, you almost always forget what your leaving behind. your past, your home, the real you. what makes us unique. its not whats out there that matters, its whats inside that does."
will someone ever care about me the way i do for you? im sorry. i wasnt a good friend. and now that you've left me for good, what else is there in life to live for? i guess you were the one that was always there, even when the world turned its back on me. i try to stay strong and plant a big smile on my face. but now that your gone, the worlds crushing me, and im finally breaking down..
"You said your time was running out
You're far from where you wanna be
You're hanging in the lost and found
You're losing touch with everything
And when you need someone to lean on
I will be around"
signed, yours truly♥
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Saturday, December 6, 2008
10:19 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAILZ!!! well early birthday :) i had an AWESOME TIME today! thanks for inviting me. ily.
sorry but i really have to say this. JAZZY YOU ARE THE PRETTIEST LITTLE THING IN THE WORLDD. especially with hoop earrings and your curled hair :) your soooooooo damn gorgeous. i feel really dull and small standing next to you. ;)
anyways.no time to post anymore. sry guys.
cya.
signed, yours truly♥
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currently listening to: all again for you by we the kings
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
9:36 PM
do you know what im doing right now? talking to alister's friends. i have to admit, they're pretty cool. lol. considering alister. ;p HAHA JKING JKING. but anyways, nice to meet you christy and james.
:)
ugh. so confused. i thought you were my friend. what happened to all that? i thought you said you'd be there for me when i needed you the most. i thought you said you loved me and never wanted anything to come between us. i thought you said we would be closer this year. i guess i was wrong. again. why do you have to do this to me? WHY. you KNOW how i feel. you KNOW that was a stupid question to ask. and yet you still ask. and you ask now. when its already too late. when all you've done before just proves to me what you really are. you know what kind of person i am. YOU KNOW. and dont pretend. because i know you know. you've been my friend for such a long time, what happened to all that? i never said what you think i said. i just said. its not good to be a follower. do you know what that means? no. i told you this last year already. you gotta learn to speak up for yourself. you gotta learn to have a mind of your own. im just sayin that because your always with them. whatever they do, you do. does that have anything with not being friends with them? no. i just wanted you to know something that i felt.
but then again, no one ever bothers to listen to me anymore. so you dont need to care about what i think. right?
:'(
i absolutely loved today's math class. it was the best. and it definitely was not because of the dividing fractions and percentages. :D
B-K
B-P
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:[ <--- remember those nicki? ;)
lmao. thanks for making today one of the best days since a long time. your the best :) ily gorgeous. <3
"Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone.."
signed, yours truly♥
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DECEMBER 1ST
Monday, December 1, 2008
7:37 PM
DECEMBER 1ST GUYS!!!!
:) happy december. happy world aids day.
16 more days till...... (drum roll please) CHRISTMASSSs!!!!!! yay. im so happy!! team dinner tomorrow, i hope my friends go :) so anyways. i wanna make this a long post but i dunno what to talk about. hmmm..
my sister's such a weirdo. 8-)
my sister's playing this game on the computer:
take THAT computer!
HA.
HA.
HA.
*pop*
*pop*
(few seconds later)
OH YAH I WON. HAHA COMPUTER.
HEHEHEHE.
(and she does this movement with her hands)
her art teacher says talking to yourself is a first sign of madness. i TOTALLY agree ;)
***
how do i tell you i'm sorry? how do i tell you what my heart is really feeling right now...how do i tell you that i still care? how do i tell you i still love you.. how do i tell you that i never wanted us to be apart, how do i tell you that i never ever wanted you to be hurt or sad.. i never wanted anything to come between us. i need you here right beside me, telling me its okay, like you've always done before. i'm sorry that i never fully appreciated what you've done for me all these years. i'm sorry that i've neglected you so many times and never even knew what i did wrong. i'm sorry for the times that i haven't been there for you when you needed me the most.. i'm sorry for the mistakes i've made, i'm sorry for not picking you up when you were on the ground. i'm sorry for taking you for granted, i never knew things would end up this way... sorry for blaming you all of those times, sorry for picking out all your flaws when really, i should have noticed who you really were. i'm sorry i never told you everything that was on my mind. i needed us to know each other, understand each other. i thought i'd never have to go through the pain of losing you... i guess i was wrong..
i can't help it if your the only one i need right now. my heart is full with unsaid apologies, the regret i feel could fill the deepest seas. i can't help it if i don't know how to go on without you.. i can't help it when i thought that when i've lost everything, you'll always be the one there for me, even when the whole world walks away... i can't help that i hoped there would always be one person that'd believe in me and understand me... i can't help remembering those happy times when it was just me and you, and nothing could ever come between us... and missing the times we'd have the same thoughts and same emotions... and missing everything about you and me.
missing what used to be, missing what we used to have.... i miss the times when i was down, and i woke up in the morning thinking, at least i have you.. i miss the times when we'd laugh about the silliest things, i miss the times when we'd get mad at each other, but get over it the next day because we knew we couldn't stay mad at each other for very long... now its all changed.
now theres someone else in your life. someone better, someone funnier, someone prettier, someone cuter, someone more important than me. she seems like everything you need now. i just wonder if you remember those times, i just wonder if you feel even the tiniest bit of love for me anymore... though i really doubt it. if there's no hope anymore, if you want me completely out of your life, if you want nothing more to do with me, i want you to know that- i'll always always be there for you. maybe not showing on the surface, but in the shadows, in my heart, i'll be rooting for you. i'll be cheering for you till the very end. i'll love you with all my heart even when there's nothing left of it, i'll still care for you with my last breath, i'll still help you through whatever, even if you push me away, even if my hearts in pieces, even if saving you breaks my soul... there will always be a place for you in my heart. always.
***
i'm a sucker for sad love songs. ;)
"When I see your smile, Tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.
I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven."
signed, yours truly♥
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