why does everything have to change? i thought you were someone i could trust, but in the end, it all comes to nothing does it. im always the one left behind, im always the one without a friend. i cant even tell anyone anything anymore. im tired of keeping everything inside, but i dont know what to do anymore. ive got no one to trust, no one who cares, no one to understand, no one who knows me. when people move on, you all completely forget about the past. do you ever wonder if theres something more to just forgetting? to just abandoning everything that used to be? does it mean its not worth appreciating, if its the past? even if its the smallest thing, a smile, a question. it doesnt mean its not important. "we spend our whole lives trying to chase after things we dont have. i'd only be happy if..... you're never satisfied with what you already have. but the truth is, you almost always forget what your leaving behind. your past, your home, the real you. what makes us unique. its not whats out there that matters, its whats inside that does."

will someone ever care about me the way i do for you? im sorry. i wasnt a good friend. and now that you've left me for good, what else is there in life to live for? i guess you were the one that was always there, even when the world turned its back on me. i try to stay strong and plant a big smile on my face. but now that your gone, the worlds crushing me, and im finally breaking down..