so its official.
merry xmas everyone back in hong kong. wish you guys all the best.
i know im just talking to thin air, but still, im wishing in my heart..
yesterday was christmas day here in whistler, and today's boxing day. not much shopping going on here, but hey, at least we got the snow!
everyone's lovin christmas. except. for me.
i just found out the most dreadful news. what a way to bring my mood down. i hate it when that happens. wtf is your problem. DO YOU KNOW ITS CHRISTMAS?! HAS SOMETHING GOTTEN INTO YOUR MIND?! out of all the days in the year, YOU CHOSE CHRISTMAS. christmas. just great. christmas is supposed to be a time when families get together, a time of happiness, a time of starting from scratch, a time of a new beginning. a time when miracles should happen.
but oh no. not for me.
your a real mood crasher did you know? i thought i'd have the best christmas, being away from all distractions, everything that had made me feel completely invisible for the past weeks. i came here with a heart full of joy, that i was escaping the world of lonliness. and you chose this moment to tell me. WHAT THE FREAK. i havent gotten over the last time okay. its only been two years. what, and you land a NEW BOMB ON ME? so its okay, that i can be at rock bottom and then sink even deeper into the ground? so its okay, that you can be happy, and not allow me some time to smile? so its okay, to tell me the worst news ever on CHRISTMAS EVE?! so its okay that i dont need to have any feelings, i should just accept anything that you say to me?! do you even care?!
what am i supposed to do now?
be happy for you? when i already have the worst life ever?
what on earth do i do?! i dont have anyone i can trust, i dont have anyone i can talk to. except my mom. and she probably doesnt even know yet.
YOU JUST RUINED MY LIFE DID YOU KNOW THAT. DID YOU KNOW THAT?! what is your FREAKING problem. if you'd known im sensitive to these kind of stuff, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE CHOSE CHRISTMAS. oh wait. YOU DONT KNOW THAT. cuz you DONT KNOW ME.
what do you want me to do now? accept it?
you dont even know all this. you dont even care do you. i knew this was gonna happen sooner or later. cuz all the bad things happen to me. right? i know its her your ALWAYS talking to on the phone. go ahead then. you already hurt me enough.
signed, yours truly
Angie here. I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety precautions.
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