JOELLE YOU DIDN'T KEEP YOUR PROMISE. but its okay. i forgive you. considering the circumstances :( i'm not gonna keep my promise either. its terribly hard i tell you. but i hope you forgive me ;)
sighs. it's like a whirlwind, the biggest tornado in the world, and i'm caught up in the middle of it. you guys make it so hard. i want to be neutral, because i can't afford to lose any of you guys anymore. i think i've done enough losing to last this year, at least. i'm supposed to be doing homework, really i should be, but i can't. there's too much on my mind. there's this doubt, this unwillingness, and above all, the guilt. i want you guys to be happy. i want this all to work out, but i guess my desires are just not good enough.
anyways. enough bout that. i hope things will get better soon. ilygsm. thats never gonna change.
short post today sry.
how do we survive in this messed up world of ours? don't worry, we'll find a way my dear, we will.
signed, yours truly♥