where are those happy days they seem so hard to find, i try to reach but you have closed your mind.

i need a break. throwing it away felt like i was ripping up my heart into a thousand little pieces and throwing it away for someone else to find. but no one bothers. no one ever bothers. there was this faint piercing sound in my head and my head was spinning. i wanted to cry, but no tears came out. there's just this shadow hanging over me all of the time. i can't bear this anymore. i need distractions, but all i get is more drama. all this turmoil all this unease all these unwanted feelings.

i hate this. why do things have to be so complicated? whats wrong with this world? in the end, i think its just us.

~I’m ready to let go, move on, be happy but there’s always this little shred of "Well maybe he’ll want me tomorrow.” You know what I mean.

~You're the one who held me down through the hard times physically, mentally, body and soul you are mine. The only light that i wanna see so you gotta shine. Hold on and dont let go, i'll be here hands open wide just ask and i will provide, for the rest of my life, we shall never divide, and all the nights that you cried just do this for me baby, hold on and don't let go.

~I'm just a girl, that doesn't like the thought of being alone. i need to be loved & held real close.

~The greatest war ever fought, is the war in the mind of a girl young and in love. Between her mind screaming a warning. Telling her 'theres no such thing as forever.' & her heart quietly whispering, 'you never know...'

~We live in a world of worst case scenarios. we cut ourselves off from hoping for the best, because too many times the best doesn't happen. but every now and then, something extraordinary occurs and suddenly, best case scenarios seem possible. every now and then, something amazing happens and against better judgment, we start to have hope.

~She's just a teenage girl who's sick of it all. she's tired of girls believing stupid lies and cheating boys. she can't stand how everybody's just looking for someone to hurt and how nobody tells the truth anymore. she's just a teenage girl who wants to go back to the old days.

~Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. at times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. life comes without guarantees.

~I know life can be so hard. it can beat you down, it can spit in your face, it can do just about anything and yet you can't do a thing to prevent it. but i guarantee that one day, you will smile again. you will wake up in the morning and not have to fight the urge to cry anymore. yes, it can take a while- weeks, months, maybe even years. but you will get there, i promise you that.

~She sat in the pouring rain looking toward the sky. she didn't want anyone to know that she was crying for him again.

~I saw you today. i realized how far apart we've grown. i know i should ask how you're doing, but i can't. i wish i could. it occurred to me that we're strangers now, you don't know me anymore. much less want to. everything is so different now.

~She sits in her corner and cries herself to sleep. wrapped up in the promises that no one seems to keep. she no longer cries, no more tears to wash away. just the diaries of empty pages and the feelings gone astray.

signed, yours truly♥