i know its one day late but oh well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERISE MY DEAR :)

YOUR 12 NOW!! always older than allissa :) haha. well anyways. even though we've always had our ups and downs, you've always managed to be there for me in the end :) thanks for all the times you've tried to make me smile, thanks for all the times you were there for me when no one else bothered to understand me, thanks for all the countless memories, thanks for all those smiles and laughter. thanks for being such an awesome friend :) i love you.

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so you know how people say that time heals all wounds. i don't think its true. because if it is, how come mine just don't seem to be getting any better. i keep ignoring it. i keep walking, keep walking until i reach the edge of the cliff. but i don't fall yet. i just keep waiting and keep hoping for someone to just reach out and hold onto my hand, to stop me from going over the edge. but everyone knows its not stable, you will collapse eventually, especially if you have little faith in yourself. so as the wind gets stronger and stronger, i start slipping. and what i'm beginning to realize is that everyone just walks by as if nothing were happening. even the ones who you thought were always there to help you whenever you were in need, even the ones, the only ones, you thought would stay true to you all this time. well i guess i've made another mistake.

can someone fade away because they haven't been cared for enough? yeah i wonder. yeah, and do you know what, it hurts. it just hurts.

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i'm sorry this keeps happening to you. i hope you guys can get back together soon. its probably just because of misunderstandings or miscommunications. as it is always. i just wish i could be there for you. in some way. i understand exactly how you feel. its like that for me too. except different circumstances. as you said, what can you do about it? i guess, you can just wait. and hope. and just try and stay clear for the time being. but just know that i'll always be here. cheer up! :)