i haven't posted in 4 days. life's just going steady i guess.




夜裡難以入睡

用什麼可以麻醉

情緒太多怎堪面對不是不要你陪

有些事你無法體會

卸下了防備

孤獨跟隨我想要一個自己的空間

能夠好好想想我們之間的明天

如果愛情不如我們想像的甜美

那麼所有的罪讓我來揹

我的心太亂 要一些空白

你若是明白 讓我暫時的離開

我的心太亂 不敢再貪更多愛

想哭的我 卻怎麼哭也哭不出來

我的心太亂 要一些空白

老天在不在 忘了為我來安排

我的心太亂

害怕愛情的背叛

想哭的我 像是一個迷路小孩 迷路的小孩



maybe i should have thought about it more and said yes. i was young and scared. i didn't realize by saying "i wasn't ready", would mean that we'd never be together again. but i'm getting tired of always having all this doubt. i'm getting tired of not having an absolute answer, i'm getting tired of not knowing exactly what i want. but i think i'm pretty sure this time. and i guess. i'm fairly sure i'll be just okay when you leave. one thing's sure. i'm prepared for whatever i'm going to feel. i'm prepared this time.



i'm so glad tomorrow is a holiday :) COUNTDOWN TO EASTER: 3 WEEKS AND 1 DAYY.

and and and birthdayss!

number 1.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA!! have an awesome 12th and keep editing super pro photos :D i love your bag. haha. and red house bakesale was AWESOME todayy :) lol. but anyways. have fun, keep a smile on your face and love yous ♥



number 2.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE FANG :) i can't believe you had to move to beijing. it sucks without you here. but i bet your doing awesome in your school. and your chinese is probably so much better than mine now :D soph told me that you get so much awards. haha. thats why you don't want to go to your sisters school. how are you? i miss you so much. i wish you could come back and visit. but your always busy, according to soph. ah well. have the greatest 12th, and remember keep that beautiful smile on your face :) your lookin fine tonight darling. love ya forever. ♥