its scary how everytime i listen to a song on my ipod, it reminds me of you. but then again, i got most of them from you. :s its getting better i think. hmm.. yeah its definitely getting better :)

i failed my patterns test. im so stupid. gosh. well anyways. today was so cold. and it was raining. not good, because i wanted to go swimming. instead i had to go to the gym but that was fine i guess. weather man work your miracles and rain tomorrowww! i hate choices. its boringgg. if it rains, we don't have to go to the field and do some lame activities.

OOOPS. sorry claudia i forgot your birthday :( WELL HERE. COUNTDOWN TO CLAUDIA'S BIRTHDAY: 2 WEEKS :D (according to her pm. i don't really know when your birthday is. argh. when is it?!)

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i frikin hate you. your officially ruining my life. i can't stop thinking about you, because you always HAVE to pop into my head just when i'm trying to be happy. i don't want to hear your voice, i don't want to see you, i wish everything could just go back to the way it was before. you DON'T know how it feels. and you can't just pretend nothing happened, because it'll always be there. oh, and i'm not supposed to go on blaming her. well. MORE THE REASON TO. its just so hard to be around you when there's all these shadows hanging over me. i've got to try to get over it, you say. in case you haven't noticed, that's what i have been trying to for the last couple MONTHS. i have this huge urge to slap you and her in front of your face. there's no way you can ever stop me from hating her. and you. there's nothing in this world that would make me change my mind. and i'm compelled to keep that promise i've made to myself. so just go away, and leave me alone.