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i hate sciencee :(
and i feel so tired.

it was awesome that we went to the beach instead of swim training today though. :) it was fun. got to see my friends again.
i'm still scared of the sea.
haha.
"i feel really sorry for you katherine. guess you really liked the guy huh. and yeah, i agree with you. that's a really bad way to end it. :( i bet it wouldn't have felt so bad if you did it yeah.."
sighs.

i'm not mad at you. just seeing you with him makes me annoyed. and the way you act, you just try too hard. and i could've never dreamed you could be the kind of person you are now. have you ever thought about what other people might think? or the people that are closest to you? for example, your friends? remember them?
and also what you did to him. he loved you, did you know that? i guess you were just too caught up in yourself to consider that for a moment.
***

i've been having a lot of fun lately. been happier :) which is a good thing. but whenever i sit down and actually start thinking about things, the wave of sadness rushes over me again.

do you ever feel sad and not know why? do you ever get the feeling when you just want to lock yourself up in your room and scream in frustration at the world? do you ever get the feeling that everything's just bottled up inside, and you don't even understand yourself? do you ever get the feeling when your eyes are all swollen and you just feel like crying, but no tears come trickling down?

yeah.
i have.

signed, yours truly♥

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