I'M BACK FROM CAMBODIA.
happy chinese new year to ya'll.
and and
happy valentines ♥♥♥
i've been missing you so much lately. i just can't seem to get you out of my head. and that really is a terrible thing.
bah.
it really is a simple decision, a simple choice, a simple question to my heart. but i can't figure it out. maybe it's because i don't want to. i'm probably just not ready yet. and somehow, i want to at the same time. i'm trying i really am. but whenever i look, there's always a wall. and this wall, it's a strong thing. its not easily broken down, especially not when i put it up in the first place.
i'm trying, i'm trying.
maybe if i tell myself that it'll be easier. i'll find a way.
but what if you start giving up.
i don't know what i'm afraid of anymore.
see this heart won't settle down, like a child running scared from a clown. i'm terrified of what you do, my stomach screams just when i look at you. run far away so i can breathe, even though you're far from suffocating me. i can't set my hopes too high,
'cause every hello ends with a goodbye.i'll never regret you,
or say i wish that i'd never met you;
because once upon a time-no matter how long ago that was-you were exactly what i needed. The greatest war ever fought is the war in the mind of a girl, young and in love. Between her mind screaming a warning telling her ' there's no such thing as fairytales' and her heart quietly whispering ' you never know'.
everything changes eventually, that's just the way life is, and you have no control over it. like, suddenly, people who you think are always going to be there.
they disappear, you know?the beautiful thing about memories is that they are yours, whether they are good, bad or indifferent.. they belong to you. & no matter where life takes you, your memories tie you to where you've been.
i guess you're right; i'm afraid. i'm afraid to put my guard down. i'm afraid that if you know who i am, you won't feel the same. and
i'm afraid that once my barrier is defeated and i'm comfortable, that you'll walk away.it's overused. it's cliche. it's corny. it's just a line. it's illogical. it's troublesome. it's always too abrupt. it's never on cue. it's difficult to say. it will be held against you. it's too bold. it's often quite pathetic. it's amazing how, after everything, i love you still works.
^^ i love that one. its so amazingly horribly true.
well,
i actually can't wait for school to start. but i'm sad that holidays are ending. again. here's to a new year guys. seriously.
i fill my head with you and it blocks out all the pain.signed, yours truly♥
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Angie here. I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety precautions.
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