i can't help it.

i try to so hard forget, to forgive, to move on. but then when i'm all alone and thinking about nothing, you reappear in my mind, and i start to hurt all over again. i don't think you'll ever be gone from my mind. or my heart. its the strangest thing. how can one person completely forget what they used to have, and leave all the hurting and painful memories for the other to bear? i don't think i CAN forget you. even if i tried my hardest. and believe me, i've tried. even if i wanted to. i couldn't.

even if you never talk to me again. even if we can't go back to what we used to have. or even a fraction closer to it. i'll always want you close to my heart. before, when i was sad and lonely, i used to talk out your letters and read them. it always gave me this warm and fuzzy feeling in my heart :) now that i think of it, i haven't read them in a long time. i guess i am getting a little better at this. i don't worry as much now. and i'm slowly picking up the pieces of my heart, and putting them back together.

where do i search, for the answers im dying for. where do i search, for a place in my heart where nothing can hurt me again. where do i find, the person that you used to be..

signed, yours truly♥